His Supplication in Repentance

His Supplication in Mentioning and Asking for Repentance


O God,
          O He whom the depiction of the describers
                    fails to describe!


          O He beyond whom passes not
                    the hope of the hopers!


          O He with whom is not lost
                    the wage of the good-doers!


          O He who is the ultimate object
                    of the fear of the worshipers!


          O He who is the utmost limit
                    of the dread of the godfearing!


          This is the station of him
                    whom sins have passed from hand to hand.
          Offenses' reins have led him on,
                    and Satan has gained mastery over him.
          He fell short of what Thou hast commanded
                              through neglect
                    and he pursued what Thou hast prohibited
                              in delusion,


                    like one ignorant of Thy power over him
                              or one who denies the bounty of Thy beneficence toward him,
          until, when the eye of guidance was opened for him
                    and the clouds of blindness were dispelled,
          he reckoned that through which he had wronged himself
                    and reflected upon that in which he had opposed his Lord.
          He saw his vast disobedience as vast
                    and his great opposition as great.


So turned to Thee,
                    hoping in Thee
                    and ashamed before Thee,
          and he directed his beseeching toward Thee,
                    having trust in Thee.
          He repaired to Thee in his longing
                              with certitude
                    and he went straight to Thee in fear
                              with sincerity.
          His longing was devoid of every object of longing but Thee,
                    and his fright departed from every object of fear but Thee.


So he stood before Thee pleading,
          his eyes turned toward the ground in humbleness,
                    his head bowed before Thy might in lowliness;
          he revealed to Thee in meekness
                    those secrets of his which Thou knowest better than he;
          he numbered for Thee in humility
                    those sins of his which Thou countest better than he;
          he sought help from Thee
                    before the dreadful into which he has fallen
                              in Thy knowledge
                    and the ugly which has disgraced him
                              in Thy judgement:
                    the sins
                              whose pleasures have turned their backs
                                        and gone
                              and whose evil consequences have stayed
                                        and stuck fast.


He will not deny Thy justice, my God,
                    if Thou punishest him,
          nor will he consider Thy pardon great
                    if Thou pardonest him and hast mercy upon him,
          for Thou art the Generous Lord
                    for whom the forgiveness of great sins
                              is nothing great!


O God,
          so here I am:
          I have come to Thee
                    obeying Thy command
                              (for Thou hast commanded supplication)
                    and asking the fulfilment of Thy promise,
                              (for Thou hast promised to respond)
                    Thou hast said,
                              Supplicate Me and I will respond to you.127


O God,
          so bless Muhammad and his Household,
          meet me with Thy forgiveness
                    just as I have met Thee with my confession,
          lift me up from the fatal infirmities of sins
                    just as I have let myself down before Thee,
          and cover me with Thy covering
                    just as Thou hast shown no haste to take vengeance on me!


O God,
          make firm my intention to obey Thee,
          strengthen my insight in worshipping Thee,
          give me the success of works
                    which will wash away the defilement of offenses,
          and take me when Thou takest me
                    in the creed of Thy prophet Muhammad
                                                  (upon him be peace).


O God,
          I repent to Thee in this my station from
                    my sins,
                              great and small,
                    my evil deeds,
                               inward and outward,
                    my lapses,
                              past and recent,
          with the repentance of one who does not
                    tell himself that he might disobey
                    or secretly think that he might return to an offense.


Thou hast said, my God,
                    in the firm text of Thy Book,
                    that Thou acceptest repentance from Thy servants,128
                              pardonest evil deeds,129
                              and lovest the repenters,130
          so accept my repentance
                              as Thou hast promised,
                    pardon my evil deeds
                              as thou hast guaranteed,
                    and make obligatory toward me Thy love
                              as Thou hast stipulated!


To Thee, my Lord, belongs
          my stipulation
                    that I will not return
                    to what is disliked by Thee,
          my guarantee
                    that I will not go back
                    to what Thou blamest,
          and my covenant
                    that I will stay away
                    from acts of disobedience to Thee.


O God,
          Thou knowest better what I have done,
                    so forgive me what Thou knowest
                    and turn me through Thy power to what Thou lovest!


O God,
          counted against me are
                    claims that stay in my memory
                    and claims that I have forgotten,
          while all of them remain in
                    Thy eye that does not sleep
                    and Thy knowledge that does not forget!
          So compensate their owners,
                    lighten their load upon me,
                    lift up their weight from me,
                    and preserve me from approaching their like!


O God,
          but I can not be faithful to my repentance
                    without Thy preservation,
          nor can I refrain from offenses
                    without Thy strength.
          So strengthen me with a sufficient strength
                    and attend to me with a defending preservation!


O God,
          if any servant repents to Thee,
                    while in Thy knowledge of the Unseen he
                              will break his repentance
                              and return to his sin and offense,
                    I seek refuge in Thee lest I be like that!
          So make this my repentance
                    a repentance
                              after which I will need no repentance
                    and a repentance
                              which will obligate the erasing of what has gone by
                              and safety in what remains!


O God,
          I ask pardon from Thee for my ignorance,
                    and I ask Thee to disregard my evil acts!
          So join me to the shelter of Thy mercy
                    through graciousness
          and cover me with the covering of Thy well-being
                    through bounteousness!


O God,
          I repent to Thee from everything opposed to Thy will
                    or far from Thy love
                              - the thoughts of my heart,
                              the glances of my eye,
                              the tales of my tongue -
          with a repentance through which each bodily part will by itself
                    stay safe from ill consequences with Thee
                    and remain secure from Thy painful penalties
                              feared by transgressors!


O God,
          so have mercy on
                    my being alone before Thee,
                    the pounding of my heart in dread of Thee,
                    the trembling of my limbs in awe of Thee!
          My sins, my God, have stood me in the station
                    of degradation in Thy courtyard.
          If I remain silent,
                    none will speak for me;
          if I seek an intercessor,
                    I am not worthy for intercession.


O God,
          bless Muhammad and his Household,
           make Thy generosity intercede for my offenses,
           follow up my evil deeds with Thy pardon,
           repay me not with the punishment that is my proper repayment,
           spread over me Thy graciousness,
           wrap me in Thy covering,
           and do with me what is done
                    by a mighty man,
                               when a lowly slave pleads to him
                               and he shows him mercy,
                    or a rich man,
                               when a poor slave submits himself
                               and he raises him to wealth!


O God,
          I have no protector against Thee,
                    so let Thy might be my protector!
           I have no intercessor with Thee,
                     so let Thy bounty be my intercessor!
           My offenses have set me quaking,
                    so let Thy pardon give me security!


           Not all that I have said rises up from
                    my ignorance of my evil footsteps
                    or forgetfulness of my blameworthy acts in the past,
          but in order that Thy heaven and those within it
                    and Thy earth and those upon it
           may hear the remorse which I have professed to Thee
                    and the repentance through which I have sought asylum with Thee.


           Then perhaps one of them, through Thy mercy,
                     may show mercy upon my evil situation
                     or be seized by tenderness for my evil state.
          There may come from him for my sake
                     a supplication to which Thou givest ear
                               more than to my supplication
                     or an intercession surer with Thee
                               than my intercession
                    through which I may be delivered from Thy wrath
                               and attain to Thy good pleasure!


O God,
          if remorse is a repentance toward Thee,131
                     then I am the most remorseful of the remorseful!
           If refraining from disobedience is a turning back to Thee,
                    then I am the first of those who turn back!
          If praying for forgiveness alleviates sins,
                     surely I am one of those who pray for Thy forgiveness!


O God,
          as Thou hast commanded repentance
                     and guaranteed acceptance,
           as Thou hast urged supplication,
                     and promised to respond,
           so also bless Muhammad and his Household,
                     accept my repentance,
                     and return me not to the returning place
                               of disappointment in Thy mercy!
          Surely Thou art Ever-turning toward the sinners,
                    All-compassionate132 toward the offenders who turn back!


O God,
          bless Muhammad and his Household
                     just as Thou hast guided us by him!
          Bless Muhammad and his Household
                     just as Thou hast rescued us through him!133
           Bless Muhammad and his Household,
                     with a blessing that will intercede for us
                               on the Day of Resurrection,
                              the day of neediness toward Thee!
           Thou art powerful over everything,134
                    and that is easy for Thee!